My mother had been wanting to move to Lancaster since we started going through the moving process. It was me and my negative energy that kept us in L.A. for so long. It took me a long time to accept that my future was no longer in Los Angeles.
Poetry with Dinora: “Let Me Be Free”
there is something inside of me begging to come out
the little voice inside of me is bigger than i am
and instead of listening to it, i run away
i run away to secret places, libraries, book stores, coffee shops
anywhere to be away from my family who hover over my life,
over my choices,
over my mistakes.
i like to be left alone
don’t bother me unless it’s necessary
i am not anti-social
but maybe i am
it is hard to think, hard to write
when everyone wants to know about me
and i want to know nothing.
one day i’ll figure out
one day i won’t come back to the city that molded me
broke me
and loved me back again.
sometimes things don’t work out
and maybe i’m not meant to stay here forever
i’ll leave, i’ll leave
somewhere
anywhere
far, far away
where i won’t be found.
Poetry with Dinora: “Find a Way”
they will break your heart too many times
and call you heartless
they want you to lose
but don’t let them
i know you are greater than that
you are not a catastrophe,
or a mistake
you are human
and all you want is to spread love to places
they tell you not to.
keep doing you
keep being brave
keep loving
and loving
and don’t give up.
Release with Poetry: “Digital Kiss” by Dorian Gray
"The demon of effortless perfection takes over through digital bliss."