Back in August 2018, Janette Ayub of Girl Underground Music invited me to play a benefit show as Cusi Coyllur to help keep families together who were separated due to Trump’s zero tolerance policy. After I performed, scarypoolparty went on and I fell in love with his fast finger-picking, soothing voice, and his song “Out Loud.” So much so that the next day, I learned it on piano and played it over and over again, adding vocal harmonies to it too.
Fast forward to the beginning of March, I saw on his Instagram that he was going to be on American Idol! It excited me so fucking much to see someone in my area with immense talent who deserves to be known actually be seen by millions on mainstream TV. And I was even more thrilled to see that he decided to audition with my favorite song of his, “Out Loud.”
“It’s about how I really didn’t tell the truth when I was younger, and later on in life, it took me awhile to really, speak the truth.” said Alejandro Aranda (scarypoolparty) to the judges during his American Idol audition.
It can be hard to say what is actually on your mind, to reveal uncomfortable feelings and be vulnerable with someone for fear of rejection or misunderstandings. I hope this song helps you through any relationship issues or a break-up you might going through, and gives you strength and enough breath to communicate your true thoughts.
Aranda made the top 20 in American Idol, so be sure to keep up with the show to support him!
Lyrics to “Out Loud” by scarypoolparty
Hold me closer than your fantasy
I can try to be the one you love and need
I’m feeling sort of like a burden
I feel it in my heart
Are you letting go of me now?
I read the words upon her face, now
Saving my last breath for you
Broken hearts molded to proof
It’s hard to breathe in and breathe out now
Ooooooh ooooooh
It’s hard to say the truth out loud
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud
It’s hard to say the truth out loud
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud [Break] Oooooh oooooh yeah
Oooooh oooooh yeah [Verse 2] I’m giving all that’s left to you
My feelings don’t mean a thing to you
Just waiting for the light to prove
That every lie was spread by you
I read the words upon her face now
Saving my last breath for you
Broken hearts molded to proof [Chorus] Ooooh ooooh
It’s hard to breath in and breath out now
Ooooh ooooh
It’s hard to breath in and breath out now
Ooooh ooooh
It’s hard to say the truth out loud
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud
It’s so hard to say
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud now, yeah
Out loud
It’s so hard to say
Out loud now
Out loud now
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Shannen
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