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Sadcore Sundays: “Somedays (I Don’t Feel Like Trying)” by The Raconteurs

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Sadcore Sundays: "Somedays (I Don't Feel Like Trying)" by The Raconteurs

My boyfriend played me The Raconteurs’ new song “Somedays (I Don’t Feel Like Trying)” in the car and he said it reminded him of me lol. ACCURATE. I feel like this so much, too much throughout my life. It’s so easily relatable. My favorite lines are:

“But somedays I just feel like crying
And somedays I don’t feel like trying”

And

“I’m here right now
I’m not dead yet.”

Those last two lines really get me. It reminds me of pushing through all the bullshit life throws at me, pushing through the pain that my own body gives me, and pushing through any challenges and obstacles to remember that hell, I’m fucking alive. I’m ALIVE. I’m still here, I exist, and that’s something to celebrate. Yeah it’s hard for me to get out of bed sometimes, yeah I sometimes cry and give up on everything, but I’m not dead yet, so that means I can’t give up. I have to keep trying. Thank you The Raconteurs for accurately singing my feels. I hope they comfort you tonight and give you the strength to just be, to just live in this present moment, no matter how shitty it is right now, because you’re not dead yet, and you shouldn’t die yet because the universe still needs you and loves you.

Sadcore Sundays: “Slow Motion” by PHOX

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Sadcore Sundays: "Slow Motion" by PHOX

The first line of “Slow Motion” by PHOX, “Everything I do, I do in slow motion,” is relatable to me on so many levels. I remember with depression, I felt like I took way too much time to complete simple tasks, and that time itself was a sloth. With panic attacks, sometimes it felt like time had stopped as my depth perception went haywire. With mind obstacles sometimes the gut becomes ill, and with stomach problems or pain I’ve always had to slow down everything in my life, which is challenging if you’re working or in school or both.

Sadcore Sundays: “Don’t Wanna Fight” by Alabama Shakes

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Sadcore Sundays: "Don't Wanna Fight" by Alabama Shakes

“Why can’t I catch my breath?
I’m gonna work myself to death
I don’t wanna fight no more”

Those lines in “Don’t Wanna Fight” by Alabama Shakes stuck with me. Personally, being in poverty and trying to navigate the system of finding jobs that will hire me or creating my own jobs and obtaining clients feels like a constant back and forth of pushing through, feeling hopeful, and then wanting to quit entirely. I remember a similar feeling when I was in college and high school trying to just make it to graduation. The lyric “I don’t wanna fight no more” taken away from the working context reminds me of wanting to die or having suicidal ideations when I had depression starting in middle school. Brittany Howard, the front woman of Alabama Shakes, sings to comfort your exhausted mind, body and soul, and gives you space to cry and release the heaviness from simply trying to exist in a society that constantly tells us it is too hard to just be.

Latina-American Teens With Depression Don’t Need DNA Testing, They Need Cultural Connection: “Some Girls” Documentary Review

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Latina-American Teens With Depression Don’t Need DNA Testing, They Need Cultural Connection: “Some Girls” Documentary Review

While scrolling through Instagram, I came across “Some Girls” documentary. I was excited to finally find a film that focused on depression in teen Latina-Americans, something I wished existed when I was in high school with depression. That day I texted Kelly Duarte, The Strange is Beautiful’s media and pop culture contributor, and we met up to watch it together for free on Kanopy, a video streaming service for public libraries. Though the documentary has a lot of great things about it, such as bringing awareness to this under represented and under researched issue, we were disappointed because it ignored many root reasons of why Latina-American teens are more likely to get depression, and disagreed with the creator’s choice to use DNA testing as a means of healing – especially because they claim it helped them, yet they never had depression.

Sadcore Sundays: “Bring Me to Life” by Evanescence

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Sadcore Sundays: "Bring Me to Life" by Evanescence

I’m surprised I haven’t featured Evanescence before today because Amy Lee, their singer, was my ultimate goth girl idol in middle school. She inspired my black lace vintage dresses and combat boots style back then. The music video is sooooo 2009 it’s amazing haha. If you’re going through a breakup and feel empty and unable to function without them, “Bring Me to Life” will be there for you.

Lyrics to “Bring Me to Life” by Evanescence: